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I love Jesus.
I love going to Church.
Now I have been changed, by Christ! And ICOC!
(Whenever you say "Thanx for the fav"/ Or "Thanx for the watch") I will put:"U R Welcome!"
I am learning Mandarin Chinese. I want to learn Thai, Indonesian, Vietnamese, and Danish.
A more personal message:
For the longest time, and over the years this has been a huge problem with me. I’d tell my parents I made a new friend, I’d tell people I love I had an amazing time. But it wasn’t easy to say that it felt like it wasn’t enough. I wanted more from what I did. When I wanted to go home or somewhere else part of it was because it felt like the walls were closing in on me. And at that time people thought that I was impolite or impatient/It wasn’t something that could be controlled. But there were times when it took a full affect on me. I’d be tired for no reason. I think part of it was because I didn’t know how to describe what or how I was feeling. When I wanted to be alone, people thought that I was being antisocial but the truth is I didn’t want to lay a burden on them. Some people would say you can tell me, I’d look them dead in the eyes and say “You don’t know what you’re asking for.” I ended up hurting myself at one time, when I lost someone I started hurting myself. I took my anger out on things including myself. I didn’t know what to say to anyone at that time. This has made me lose a lot of things, whether going to a birthday party, going to a party, or some for of event. Fatigue held me down sometimes. I just think everyone should know anxiety is no joke. For some it is like a ball and chain that gets carried around. It sometimes takes a lot just to smile. Afterwards I feel tired and want to keep doing what I’m doing. Anxiety isn’t necessarily a sin. You didn’t do anything to make it come at you. To all my friends just give that person space. They might need it more than you think. Sometimes they have to work things out. Sometimes even when laughing at something or trying to get you to laugh or smile, that literally takes them a lot of energy and that doesn’t always come easily for people. For me Hugs are like vitamins for someone like me. I don’t mind a hug, but I can’t be in one place for so long. This is just a confession. It’s not something to hurt someone but a message for those who want to understand what people who have anxiety depression is like.
Anxiety. I wish you would stop and leave my friends and family alone. I wish you would take a hike and get out of here. You’re not welcome here anymore. Take your crap and go, I don’t like you. You were never my friend. You’re just. A blood thirsty leech that feeds off of me all day and night. Whether I’m doing something I enjoy, or am sleeping. I want your ugly butt gone. And no you cannot kiss mine, you’d find a way to suck me back into your maze of lies and hate. You make my life upset. You hurt my friends and family, you make life unbearable for other people. My New Years resolution is to pray your ugly butt away. So take a huge long hike. My for final word for you (SCRAM!!!!!!!)
Prayer to God: Father God I thank you for allowing me to share my story. Father thank you for helping me through the tough times and through the worst. And father thank you for giving me Columbia Campus Advance as well. But thank you for Columbia Church of Christ as well. Thanks for Perrie TremblerofDays Keeve who honestly has been my friend since I first met him. And thank you for his beautiful wife Nikki Harte Keeve.
Father thank you for ReBecca Sox for being an amazing animal care giver. Cortney Bailey for being a good friend.
To everyone who reads this message I want you all to know that wha you do for someone like me is a blessing. And God will reward you in the end.
Whatever you do for the least of these, you do for me as well. -Jesus.
And I will continue living thanking God for each day. And one day my Facebook family we will see the Kingdom of God.